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Have you changed the way
you write your soft letters,
like m and c and s? Made them harsher,
perhaps, to offer no hiding spaces?

When you wake up,
do you have to weed your eyelashes?

At dinner do you see a thatch of hands
writhing in the vomit of your lamb mince?

At parties do you feel like
you are at a different party
or like you are stuck
in the back of the bathroom mirror
listening to a stranger howl in the kitchen?

Are your teeth too loose?

Do you understand
just how useless
your feet are?

Are you crying enough?
Measure your daily output of tears
against the dusty weight
of the deceased’s spectacles.

At night
do you press your ear to the wall
and hold your breath
until you hear running water?

Have you tried running?

How do you feel
when it rains?
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Ellora is the first-prize winner of the Carol Ann Duffy challenge on Young Poets Network, judged by Mari Hughes-Edwards, and celebrating Duffy's legacy as Poet Laureate. She is also the first-prize winner of Bailey Blackburn's 2018 August challenge #2 on found poems and the third Bloodaxe Archive challenge, The Re-Re-Re-Drafting Challenge. Ellora is also the second-prize winner in August challenge #4 on the poetics of interrogation, written and judged by Foyle Young Poet Kara Jackson in 2019. She is the third-prize winner of the Ode to (Small) Joy challenge and August Challenge #2: Fairy Tale Poetry.

Ellora is commended in the first, second and fourth Bloodaxe Archive challenges, The Poetics of the Archive, White Space and Take Note; the 2019 and 2020 poetry translation challenges with Modern Poetry in Translation; the Mary Wollstonecraft challenge, written and judged by Bee Rowlatt of the Mary on the Green campaign; the moon poetry challenge, judged by Nii Parkes; the Golden Shovel challenge, judged by Peter Kahn; the Bletchley Park challenge, judged by So Mayer; the W. S. Graham challenge judged by Rachael Boast as part of Graham’s centenary celebrations; and Ankita Saxena’s protest poetry challenge, remembering 100 years of the women’s vote in the UK.
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Ellora is the first-prize winner of the Carol Ann Duffy challenge on Young Poets Network, judged by Mari Hughes-Edwards, and celebrating Duffy's legacy as Poet Laureate. She is also the first-prize winner of Bailey Blackburn's 2018 August challenge #2 on found poems and the third Bloodaxe Archive challenge, The Re-Re-Re-Drafting Challenge. Ellora is also the second-prize winner in August challenge #4 on the poetics of interrogation, written and judged by Foyle Young Poet Kara Jackson in 2019. She is the third-prize winner of the Ode to (Small) Joy challenge and August Challenge #2: Fairy Tale Poetry.

Ellora is commended in the first, second and fourth Bloodaxe Archive challenges, The Poetics of the Archive, White Space and Take Note; the 2019 and 2020 poetry translation challenges with Modern Poetry in Translation; the Mary Wollstonecraft challenge, written and judged by Bee Rowlatt of the Mary on the Green campaign; the moon poetry challenge, judged by Nii Parkes; the Golden Shovel challenge, judged by Peter Kahn; the Bletchley Park challenge, judged by So Mayer; the W. S. Graham challenge judged by Rachael Boast as part of Graham’s centenary celebrations; and Ankita Saxena’s protest poetry challenge, remembering 100 years of the women’s vote in the UK.
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Grief Counselling

Ellora Sutton

After Caroline Bird

Have you changed the way
you write your soft letters,
like m and c and s? Made them harsher,
perhaps, to offer no hiding spaces?

When you wake up,
do you have to weed your eyelashes?

At dinner do you see a thatch of hands
writhing in the vomit of your lamb mince?

At parties do you feel like
you are at a different party
or like you are stuck
in the back of the bathroom mirror
listening to a stranger howl in the kitchen?

Are your teeth too loose?

Do you understand
just how useless
your feet are?

Are you crying enough?
Measure your daily output of tears
against the dusty weight
of the deceased’s spectacles.

At night
do you press your ear to the wall
and hold your breath
until you hear running water?

Have you tried running?

How do you feel
when it rains?